Hi all,
...I have since for the last year or so ceased to have such dreams, and thus I've defaulted back to the world-view I've long been most comfortable with - agnostic, secular materialism. Nonetheless it has been playing on my mind again as of late, these unresolved, experiences, and I want to know what to make of them. I feel as though something doesn't want me to post this post either.
What is everyone's opinion on all of this? Surely you can all see how improbable all this is by materialistic chance alone, and the real kicker for me was that receipt. What are the chances the one time I go grocery shopping with this mindset that I get the number of the beast on a physical receipt in the middle of the day??
Your thoughts and input would be much appreciated.
Thanks all,
First, reading the description of your first experience, that has all the CLASSIC elements of ASP (Awareness during Sleep Paralysis)
People keep referring it to as just "sleep paralysis", but that's not exactly correct; we all experience sleep paralysis, every night, when we dream. We just aren't aware of it, because, well, we're asleep and dreaming. The function of the temporary paralysis is to stop you from acting out your dreams, and possibly injuring yourself.
A portion of people experience ASP, where they wake up part of the way, so that they think they are awake, except the paralysis lingers a while, instead of going away immediately when you wake. You thus become "aware" of the paralysis.
This state, especially if you don't know what ASP is, and thus don't know what is going on, can be very frightening, and your mind searches for an explanation for the paralysis. You are not fully awake, even though you may open your eyes, and in this state, you are extremely prone to all sorts of hallucinations, as your mind races to make sense of what is happening.
The material for those hallucinations comes from what you know about - and you don't even have to actively believe in that, it seems to be enough that you find it a frightening possibility, even if improbable.
What you described in your experience, a "demonic" being sitting on your chest, pinning you down or strangling you, is one of the common types of hallucinations that get reported in ASP. Back when I was younger, I experienced ASP quite a few times, and researched it, and associated hallucinations, pretty thoroughly.
By the end of that research (and you can read more about it in the "Welcome" forum, in the thread "Welcome new Members! Introduce yourselves here!", where I wrote about my experiences in a discussion with another new member), I became a skeptic. In studying the phenomena, I even learned to induce the ASP state on purpose; though it was very difficult, and success was sporadic.
Even after I'd concluded that there was nothing supernatural connected to this phenomena, I had read up on a type of historical ASP hallucination called "old hag attack", where people would hallucinate an old witch strangling them and muttering incomprehensible curses, and guess what I experienced the next night?
As I experienced the hallucination, initially my heart was racing, but I realized what was going on, so I just "disbelieved" the hallucination, noticed that I wasn't being strangled, but was in fact holding my breath, took a breath, and the hallucination vanished.
As you come to understand what the mind is capable of creating, in the form of hallucinations in that state, you gain both an appreciation of what an amazing thing this lump of gray matter between your ears is, and an appreciation that what you see, may not always accurately reflect what is there. With this understanding, the ASP experiences, and any associated nightmares become less frightening too, and you can learn to consciously control the hallucinations, direct them to less frightening paths.
Nowadays ASP experiences have become increasingly rare for me. I think the last one I had was a couple of years ago. And when I do have them, any hallucinations now reflect the fact that I don't find the least bit of plausibility in the supernatural anymore; now if I hallucinate something, it's something more mundane, like burglars having come to my apartment and immobilized me somehow. As that sort of hallucination is more realistically something that could happen, it's harder to recognize as a hallucination, though any time I wake up immobile, I am now predisposed to disbelieve anything I experience.
One thing that seems to increase the chance of ASP is sleeping on your back. I don't think anyone knows why this is, but if it becomes a problem for you again, I'd recommend, first, researching it, realizing that this is a known quirk of brain processing, not anything external to what your brain conjures up, and maybe try sleeping on your side, if you can, and don't already.
As for the coincidences with the receipts and such; others have already responded to those. Briefly, our minds are primed to recognize patterns that seem relevant to us, and the OPPORTUNITIES for random occurrancies of such numerical patterns are so many, in any given day, that if you are primed to notice them, you will see them relatively frequently, just by chance. It's not improbable at all.