It doesn't sound stupid, it seems quite distressing. Unfortunately as things stood, it did look dishonest.
Thank you for understanding that your previous claims could be harmful to others, and for removing them from your website.
I am curious what you consider "documented", by which I mean what methods of documentation you have used. Depositions by independent objective observers? (Not family members!). Something caught on film (clearly and unambiguously)?
Simply recalling past events and then writing down your account, even if more than one person was present and agrees with the account (and even if straight after events), is mere anecdotal reportage, and not useful documentation. I've tried to explain how it's possible to sincerely believe you have experienced something, but it can be an illusion, even if you would swear blind it was real and solid. People can share hallucinations. The more invested in the experience you are, the more you can create the experience, and collude unconsciously in generating the experience in each others' minds. People are highly suggestible!
On the other hand, people are extremely bad at observing what's happening in front of them. Have you ever seen that video where there are some dancers, and a couple of minutes into the video a man dressed in a gorilla suit walks out among them, wanders about for a few seconds, and then walks away again? Incredible as it seems, I did not see the man in the suit until it was replayed and the man pointed out with some onscreen pointer or something (I can't remember). Most people fail to see the gorilla!
Or the demonstration in a class where an armed man suddenly runs into the classroom and mugs the teacher, and then runs out of the room? Afterwards the teacher asks the members of the class, who had really believed it was real, what did the mugger look like, and they all report different and contradictory details? Eye witness testimony is a miserable failure.
You are clearly totally wed to your conviction that some things have happened in the past that are incontrovertible realities. That conviction is a boulder in your path. Until you are willing to admit that your mind is so powerful that it can fool you, and find the motivation or desire to accept the reality that science has described, that there is no such thing as a "spirit world" or any supernatural phenomena, you will not get past the theatre of your own creation.
Ultimately it really comes down to you deciding what you really want: peaceful and healthful life, or psychodrama?
I hope you find peace... and life.