Interestingly, as I was feeling the emptiness inside subject 36, logic was telling me that it surely couldn't be this person, because it would be too obvious since she is older than the others, and perhaps she was among the subjects to try to trick me. I was trying to not pick her, because of her age.
This is not interesting... at least not the way you mean it. This is an excellent example of you attempting warm/cold reading of the subjects, and it is really important that you realise this and accept it. You also need to accept that cold reading is not a skill (as you define it) and that this shows you do not have any unusual skill or ability and need to stop this.
I can be prepared to accept that maybe you were right about Dr Carlson. It does not demonstrate anything,as it has not been repeatable and wasnnot correctly recorded anyway.
I am willing to state that the fact that somebody discussed one of the subjects with you prior to the test completely invalidates it, an you are right to be angry about it, although you need to also examine what it means for your results. Again .... warm reading in action.
Anita,
I have been where you are. I came here to win a million bucks for psychic abilities and intended to demonstrate them via tarot readings, or predictions. I also toyed with trying to test for the MDC for touch-free healing. While discussing these things and others with members here I learned about cold reading, about the ideometer effect and most importantly about confirmation bias and memory tricks. I had no selfish intentions - I intended to use the money to help me setup a system in the UK (to begin with) whereby other psychics and healers would face similar testing to prove their skills,and be placed on a register for'real' psychics and healers. I wanted to protect the public and also protect those psychics and healers who could actually do the job. Well, at least I succeeded in that to a degree.
Please Anita. Think through what has happened, and take more time to understand what is meant by warm or cold reading,and what is meant by confirmation bias. For you in particular, please understand what is meant by cold reading, because however unintentional, that's playing a large part here, and it is not an ability to decideto make further use of. Indeed... lilke the ideometer effect it is usually dramatically reduced in effect by realising it is happening.
I remember what it is like to believe you have an ability that sets you apart, and in many ways it makes people like you and I similar to those in programs like American Idol / X-Factor ... except we aren't the finallists I'm afraid. This road to understanding what happens when you look at people and think you see what's going on inside enough to even diagnose people ... it's a very scary road. I know that. It's often very painful. I said many pages back and I'll say again that it is absolutely worth every single step.
You seem to be a reasonably good student. Learn to set aside the personal issues here when you study this situation. Review explanations and don't be on the defensive so much that you ignore the heart of what is being said.
You're well written, well spoken and bright. Put those tools to good use.
Much as I was initally pissed off at people here, and particularly a member called Druid who invited me here in the first place, I thank them and him wholeheartedly for helping me get all the answers that those around me in the new-age community were angry I even asked for. Someday I hope to see you thank the JREF members ...maybe even UncaYimmy ... for the time and effort they have put in to your exploration of your experiences. I didn't get a tenth of this amount of effort and attention, and I'm embarrassed that I stayed away from the criticisms for a long while as I adjusted to my new life free of spritual connections and guides. I am impressed how much you have weathered the criticisms levelled at you, but I would hate to see you waste all the time and effort - on
your part as well as everyone else's.
Please ... take a break by all means, but please - please - take on board the valid information that is being shared with you here. Don't waste any more money, or more time that should be spent on your studies on this matter. Get your grades, get your qualifications, and then look back. Hopefully, like me, you'll feel all the better for it.