If you dont mind me asking, how did you lose your faith?
For me, I was exposed to several different religions...each had infallible leaders and purpoted truths and ways you could "know" your religion was true (all manipulating confirmation bias)...So it seems you could know truth through a feeling...but lots of people with different beliefs had very strong feelings that their belief was true--heck, some people even killed themselves for their belief.
So what was a girl to do. I couldn't question god (it was arrogant...and I'd already been scolded by nuns for asking if god was in my butthole--since, he was supposedly EVERYWHERE). I was told I could get a calling (scary) and that Jesus could appear as a begger...but I wasn't supposed to talk to strangers...
It seemed to be quite the conundrum. And most adults seemed to believe that life was a test for the afterlife, but no one seemed to be doing very much to find out which infallible leader was true. I mean--this was ETERNITY we were talking about--why didn't my government care?!...shouldn't they be giving lie detectors to popes, prophets, gurus, etc. And in college, I learned greek myths and met people with even other beliefs and they all sounded equally unbelievable to me. People like to explain things and control things. They like to believe they have souls that live forever and that makes them open to manipulation to those who tell them these souls can suffer forever or live happily forever based on a person's belief.
I started to realize that none of the religions is true if souls aren't real. And there is no good evidence for souls. Consciousness seems very clearly to be a product of the brain. I worked with people who had assorted brain damage and studied others...and this seemed very clear to me. This guy, Clive Wearing, can't form any new memories because his hiccocampus is destroyed from a virus--every moment he feels like he is waking up for the first time after a long coma...always...every time he blinks he's newly awake...and you can't let him know about his condition because he can't remember anything new! So if you need a hippocampus to remember how can a soul be anything without a memory of what it was? How come those who are brain damaged and lose sight, smell, etc. don't have their "soul" filling in. It occurred to me that the soul is an illusion...just like the earth "seems" flat.
That means this life is the one to focus on! We are so lucky to live in a time when we can learn so much and share so much with other humans...
It became increasingly obvious to me that faith is a bad way to find truth.
Evidence is the best way to find truth. Truths based on evidence evolve and are honed...just like technology...mathamatical knowledge...astronomy...etc.
I don't feel like I lost faith. I feel like I found truth. And scientific knowledge is way more awe inspiring and understandable then so-called mystical truths (which are really only useful for feeling good or entertaining yourself when you're stoned.) Scientific knowledge gives us DNA, paternity testing, dinosaurs, carbon dating, computers, the internet...all knowledge evolving from knowledge that came before. Religions don't evolve. Religious miracles pale in comparison to scientific miracles that humans of generations past could never imagine--airplanes, cell phones, the internet, rockets, gps devices, sattlelite t.v.--what biblical miracle compares to that?
The earth was spherical even though humans for eons thought it was not...it was not the center of the universe even though humans thought that it was. (Holy books "forgot" to mention these truths). I think the same can be said of souls. They seem real, but they are an illusion that helps us cope with the understanding that we will die.