Scorpion. I do not think of you as crazy, but I do believe there is an imbalance in your brain chemistry. You are under considerable stress and agitation. I doubt that you are taking proper care of yourself, exacerbating the issue with your symptoms.
I don't know how you selected the doctors out there that haven't helped, but it is unfortunate. I finally found one who 'got me' and recognized what I was suffering from. Yes, I am labeled "mentally ill", and it doesn't bother me. After finding the medication that was right for my brain chemistry imbalance, I began medication, that I will need to take the rest of my life.
But now, I can honestly say that I am happy. Yes, I have life's problems, and losses, but I function. I have a better relationship with friends and family. And, I know joy daily.
Wouldn't that be good, Scorpion? A fresh start. Nothing electrical will ever do that for you.
Take care,
Julia