chipmunk stew
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I had a similar devour/bloat/purge experience in high school and a few years beyond with what might be called Shamanism. It's an extremely disappointing experience, and I had a bout with depression to deal with afterwards.It reminds me of my high school years. I was fascinated with the UFO phenomena and I devoured everything I could read about the subject (years before the internet). I could not understand why it was not taken more seriously among the press and general public, considering the mountain of evidence, and I grew increasingly disillusioned that I couldn’t generate more interest in the subject among the people I knew. I also recall enjoying a certain sense of secret superiority because of what I knew and most everyone else didn’t. Eventually I managed to absorb so much UFO info that I achieved what can only be described as an enlightened sense of awareness. In other words, I was buried by the BS. I ended up reevaluating everything I had read and I reluctantly had to admit to myself that the vast majority of it was bunk. It was all very disappointing, I crashed pretty hard and I ended up purging my library of most of the crap I had accumulated over the previous two - three years. I suspect that many of the 9/11 CTers are going through a similar phase in their lives.
The only way out of the depression triggered by my budding skepticism was a total skeptical examination of my beliefs, which at times was quite painful to do. I don't envy the CTers who are beginning to doubt. They have a rough road ahead for the near future.
sorry.