smartcooky
Penultimate Amazing
While your statement has the appearance of a general insight into an undesirable facet of human nature, it is instead an exposure of some weird tic you have.
Seriously, I have never once in my life looked at a black person and just reflexively thought of the n-word. The very notion is completely bizarre to me.
Likewise.
I used the word once when I was about 12... that got me confined to my bedroom for the weekend.
Now I use the word rarely, and exclusively to bait racists; never as a pejorative.