Well, as interesting as some of the derails can get, it's back to the main topic.
Dioptre, I'm going through a lot of what you are right now. I believe there's a god, I just can't prove there is. Bottom line for me is that I have to base my actions on what I know works, rather than what someone tells me works. The best evidence I have says I wasted my time by attending church, and my money by making tithes and offerings. Christianity has become so legalistic, so pharisaical, it's become what it sought to replace.
I'm not being "converted" to atheism, rather, I'm rejecting fantasies of some benign sacred Santa Claus who will set aside the laws of nature to bless me. I fail to see how that happens in real life. (I've other threads on this, so I won't continue a derail here. You can check them out at a more convenient time, Amigo.)
Ken made a valid point: Which God? If you read even half of what's out there about Christianity alone, you have some of the most diverse group of opinions to be found, and you can't get ANYONE to give you a straight answer about even the basic attributes of God. If that's the case, how can you tell the "god" you worship is the True God? That, quite frankly, makes things even more frightening, because all you need to do is look at the damage done by people like Eric Rudolph, and you can see there's a monumental disconnect between what most of us would consider basic decency, and what people like Rudolph do.
And this isn't even the half of it: Consider that the worst damage done to people takes place over the course of years, poisons administered in small doses week after week. It's forms of abuse, of hate, bred deeply into the hearts of those who choose "faith." Faith in what? Considering the divergent opinions I mentioned before, I ask again, what is it people are choosing to believe in? The "god" most folks choose to follow seems to mirror the prejudices and bigotries of the follower!
In other words, we're leading ourselves! What's the point in going to Church if you're not confronted or challenged to become a better person? If the Jesus you follow is some blonde dude with long hair who could easily be your next door neighbor, if he'd only get a haircut and drive a Lexus?
The big question comes to mind: What if he isn't real? What if we've been lied to? In the end, have we lived a better life by following this pattern of behavior, or would our lives have been better if we rejected it? Read through the bigotry of what's been posted before by our latest Christotroll, and the answer becomes obvious. It became obvious, and I wound up walking out from the Church. I'd had enough. I wanted to be kinder, I wanted to be more honest, I wanted to be a Good Man. I was none of the above. That provoked a change.
All I can say, Amigo, is keep your eyes open, and keep moving. In realizing what I'd missed out on, I discovered I had a lot of ground to make up. It's worth it.