Dear folks:
Since I got my first contact with JREF forum I was deeply curious. I was tremendously curious about skepticism in multiple forms. I have never before made contact with so many folks under the same line of thought.
Once, I was strongly skeptic myself. I would laugh at anybody's face when I would listen to things beyond pure materialism. I would see "morons" everywhere and I always looked down at "those" speaking nonsense, without any evidence on what they claimed.
It was one simple day, no books, no readings, no chat.... Suddenly, while I was sitting in contemplation of the wonders of Nature, during a short trip to the country side, the amazing Order of nature slapped my face.
Abruptly, I could not only see the perfect order in everything but I also could see the process taking place.
To the moment, I was a paladin of evolution theories, I was a Darwin reverend and I could see everything apart of everything else, each thing doing it's lonely dance, its lonely evolution from nowhere into anywhere.
I knew evolution meaning was "change", not order or progress. Fellows would tell me evolution has no purpose, it just happens, randomly, disorderly. We humans are the product of chance, without purpose, without aim, without sense of evolutionary direction.
But there I was, totally absorbed, watching not only an immense and perfect order but also a clear stepping of change in a forward direction. I said: "This I am seeing is not evolution. Evolution is just change. There is no designer, no architect..." I repeated to myself.
But there in front of me was not anymore a bunch, a large bunch of things and creatures. In it's place there it was: An incredibly complex, single and whole entity.... The Universe!
I could then see the interconnection linking all apparently separated things. I didn't know many years later, it would be called the Quantum world, the Interconnecting plasma, the Fundamental Totum...
Then I saw how the supposed to be serendipitous evolution was instead a perfect plan. I could see with bright light how the Totum transformed each simple particle into microorganisms, and how those would gain extraordinary complexity. A perfect architecture was taking place all around extending in a smooth flow until reaching me.
Then I realized I was made by the Totum as to be the witness of such great labor. I could understand it! I could see it was happening right before my eyes!
My mission on Life and Earth was so clear I laughed for a long time. The minute Consciousness spread through all the Totum was being condensed in my own organism, where billions of microorganisms converged their grain of consciousness in a single being.
A creature capable of seeing the dance of sublime architecture! I understood then The Totum was working towards higher levels of consciousness minute by minute, day by day, year by year... times through times...
The notion of perfect order, purpose and direction dissolved the fragmented ideas of an evolution, random, non directed and blind.
The perfect perception took me over towards in time. I could see the trees dying and coming back. I could see how flowers would remember their design and cyclically reappearing and maintaining their own idea of self...
Then I could understand how my own life was a perfect design, to encapsulate a small part of the Totum full Consciousness so it could watch itself being! Wonder of wonders!
The whole Universe in front of my eyes was the substantial proof of itself. A clear evidence of magnificent engineering, of astonishing art and beauty!
Of course I could see also, this was an endless process, always going forward, beyond time and limited life spans.
All this brought me to understand the Eternity of Life, the limitless expansion of pure Consciousness and the ultra clear notion of Eternal Life and Improvement.
Now....
I realize I am in the middle of a fruitless discussion. Honest people trying to erase my perception with clouds of uncertainty and blur. I know they do it in "good faith"...
I also realize this discussion is endless and getting nowhere. Neither will I drop my sublime understanding of the Totum, neither the good folks here would drop their total demand for futile proof after proof.... For ever.
Good folks failed to see the higher realms of Global Interconnection and perfection. I was not intending to change that, because I knew of my prior mental state and realized each and everyone will eventually see "the thing" as it actually is. Sooner or later. But the Totum designed the process so no one will escape from full realization of Himself.
We should consider the subject exhausted and look forward to other possibilities.
If most don't want Life After Death... So be it!
If some want it... Go... get it!
One thing is: Our real Essence is Indestructible, eternal, Perfect, Sapient, Just and Loving.
I am not saying I am going away. I am just saying I find this thread reached an endless loop, like a black hole....
