JayUtah
Penultimate Amazing
To them I was just a face in the crowd.
You were "just a face in the crowd" when your argument needed to be that you were too insignificant to warrant any attention or effort on the part of others to discover your family's past. When that argument fell flat, you suddenly became an "insider in the church" so that your new argument could be that no one would have been able to do the research we hypothesized without you knowing about it. You're simply asserting whatever facts need to be true in order to evade the rebuttal du jour, with little regard for whether it your story stays consistent from day to day.
Now that it's evident your critics didn't buy the ploy, you're desperately trying to equivocate some path between your two claims. You haven't even bothered to try to fix the other holes in your story -- the patent absurdities in your version of your mother's pregnancy. Instead you try to shame your critics for having found them, and then frenetically try to change the subject. Now it's becoming a daily occurrence for you to simply recite all your beliefs over and over again. You're clinging to them like a safety blanket.
You asked us to accept that your belief in spirits and true mediums was the product of lengthy fact-finding and rational deliberation. That's preposterous, because all we're doing here is asking you to continue the process you say you followed in order to arrive at your belief. You can't and won't do it. So it's hardly the process by which you came to believe in spiritualism.