Yeah, I don't get a sense that anyone here dislikes you, Scorpion. I certainly don't. If you're not merely trolling, then you seem to be a guy who's caught some tough breaks in life. If I may speak for other folks here, we like to think that one reason many of us are drawn to skepticism and critical thinking is precisely to help vulnerable people (like you) from falling prey to snake oil salesmen (i.e., every damn "spiritual healer" you've mentioned).
You also are, potentially, crying out for something from this forum. Were it merely attention, you could get that at some kind of spiritualist forum. That makes me wonder if deep down you really want to be told how the spiritualist bunk you've literally bought into is a waste of time, effort, and money.
If that's not what you want, then what is it? You don't seem to have any interest in debate or science or trying to convert skeptics to your brand of spiritualism. I guess my question for you is what you hope to get out of your time here? How can we help you?