Hello there.
Some of you already know me given that I've been frequenting the chat for many months now, but I had may as well make an intro for the rest of those here since I have in fact made a few posts on the forum now. So, for those interested, here's a brief story of me.
I have grown up and still live in US along the coast of SC (southern east coast of the US.) I was raised Christian, of no particular denomination and my parents have always been rather conservative and to an extent what many may call your average southerner/redneck.
The first many years of my life were rather average. I had a few close friends that lived nearby and enjoyed doing live roleplaying (no costumes, we were only like 6-12 or so.) We also enjoyed our share of video games. I did well in school, reaching the honors program, but had difficulty making friends at school through much of my early childhood. From what I can gather now, most of the children seemed to think I was weird or gay. I don't remember much from my early and middle school years, but I do know that I didn't really have any close friends at school except one (who also happened to live nearby.)
In highschool I became slightly less socially awkward and finally started becoming friends with the honors group that I had already been in classes with for three years by then. I also came to realize around the age of 16 or 17 that I was transgender. I was in fact a girl and not a boy.
Fast-forwarding to college, I decided I didn't want to transition and took off to an art school for film. As much fun as it was and as many friends as I made, after a year of attended I gradually sunk into a major depression eventually hitting the point where I stopped attending classes, nearly stopped eating, and was hoping that I would starve to death. I landed in the ER and then to a psychiatric hospital. Sadly, I never came out as trans to any of them.
I also around this time became an atheist. During my time dealing with depression I not very surprisingly encountered the problem of evil, which I found to be unresolvable. After a few weeks or so of thinking about the whole thing, I went from feeling that I loved God to feeling that I couldn't worship such a heartless being and finally to just dropping the whole thing after realizing there wasn't any good reason to believe it all in the first place. From atheism I stumbled upon skepticism. I'd started getting into atheist podcasts and managed to stumble upon the SGU podcast.
Well over two years after my depression episode I am now 21, am now back in college to hopefully get into neuroscience, and am finally starting therapy for my gender issues. I plan to hopefully start hrt soon, this year if I can. My biggest issues right now is trying to figure out how to come out to family and how to deal with stress.
Soooo thats me.

Hi.
