This is one of those things that I think I have a 'feel' for, but that I don't yet have an easy, or effective, way to verbalize.
No, the problem is not that your theory is too nuanced to express in English. The problem is that you decided ahead of time what the outcome was going to be, and you're having a hard time equivocating past people's nonsense detectors, here or anywhere else. Your changes of language always come after some exactitude of meaning is reached, and serve only to shove it back out again into the realm of ambiguity. There is no incentive for you to reach a final conclusion, because you confessed you had a strong emotional investment in not losing this debate. Therefore a better explanation for your constantly shifting language is that you want to prolong the admission of defeat and maintain the delusion that you still have a viable argument.
We can’t figure the likelihood of your current existence the cause and effect way.
The effect is the observation that everyone is self-aware. The cause proposed in materialism is that everyone is alive. To wit, self-awareness is a property of highly evolved organic life. The likelihood of the observation under materialism, for any given case, is exactly the likelihood that organic life will occur. There is no magical "pre-existence" in materialism to muddy up the waters.
The likelihood of existence that you're trying to reckon is P(E|H). You have told us that your argument requires this to be a very small number. So now you're just making up a bunch of irrelevant nonsense to attribute to P(E|H) so that you can argue it must be small. The insinuation that such a likelihood would be incomputable and must therefore be assumed to be small is just one example of your imagination masquerading as fact. This is one of several fatal flaws I previously identified in your argument.
Here, we have no idea how many events had to occur for you to be born...
But as has been explained to you multiple times, the probability of a
fait accomplit is irrelevant, as is quibbling endlessly about the probability of organic life arising. Yes, I understand that you want to use the allegedly small probability of a hypothesis predicting an event to draw conclusions via Bayes about the overall probability of the hypothesis. You imagine that you're computing a posterior probability based on the prior probability of H and the foisted notion that H doesn't predict the observed outcome. But as I laid out in describing another of your fatal flaws, you don't know how to structure an inference properly to obtain a reliable posterior probability. You arbitrarily set both the prior and the likelihood, and wrongly decide that what comes out of there must be a fact that proves your belief.
We are left with the lottery and chance, and we’re stuck with the number of tickets to be drawn, over the number of tickets in the container.
No, we aren't. The "number of tickets to be drawn" has no analogue in materialism. The one that you tried to invent and frantically paste onto materialism is demonstrably absurd.
And, my claim is that there is no limit on the number in the container.
And so you divide by infinity, which you say gives you "near zero." It doesn't; where division by infinity is defined (which is not in this case), it is defined as
exactly zero. And as we've discussed at length, this would mean anything that could "potentially" exist before it existed would have a zero likelihood of existing, and therefore not exist. But things clearly do exist, and you patch that up by declaring that your magical divide-by-infinity-and-get-an-arbitrary-answer mathematics applies only to souls.
Your "claim" is simply pseudo-mathematical and pseudo-philosophical nonsense. It's not about your inability to express it in the proper words. It's a matter of the concepts being patent nonsense you made up on the fly to try to cobble together a proof for your preconceived outcome.
Again, that’s my best guess at the moment.
That's been your best guess for years, and it's not good enough. I was kind enough to compile a list of a dozen or so reasons why it's not good enough. Unfortunately you paid attention to it only when it seemed it would serve your publicity purposes. You have yet to pay attention to it as a comprehensive answer to your theory.
Instead we have to suffer through this endless litany of your confessed shortcomings. We're not interested in your perceptions of why you can't make your point. We're not interested in confessions of forgetfulness. We're not interested in endless repetitions of your claims without any proof. All that is just desperate distraction from your inability and unwillingness to address any of your critics, anywhere.