Also of interest is that Paul himself drops occasional bombs like that he's already been stoned (2 Corinthians 11:25), or literally "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me" (Galatians 2:20.) Or, depending how you understand his being "in the deep", he may actually be saying that he's been shipwrecked and SPENT A NIGHT AND A DAY UNDERWATER (same 2 Corinthians 11:25). There is a good possibility that Paul actually had Cotard delusion, one of the fairly common symptoms of schizophrenia. (Note that belief to be figuratively dead, but still somehow special or immortal as a result, is still Cotard.) Maybe. Or maybe not. But if that's the case, and he actually believes that he's died at least 2-3 times and Jesus just pops him back, well, why sweat yet another execution, eh?![]()
He's not talking about death in the same way you are reading it. He's talking about letting go of the external self that we tend to think of as the real I. This letting go is a "death" in a sense and allows us to be "reborn" in Christ and Christ in us. I forget where, but it's also described as emptying your self so that you can be filled with God. I know you'll call this nonsense but, behind the external/physical self is our true self that will survive our literal death. If the inner self is attached to the external, it will be clinging to a phantom that doesn't exist anymore (which would be what we call hell) but if you allow God to transform us into what He created us to be we will be united with Him (which is what we call heaven).
I'm terrible at explaining it and even more terrible at putting it into practice but that's how I read what Paul was saying.
