It was and is difficult for me to understand how the defendant could discount the obvious possibility that the reason his bathroom was mysteriously occupied was that the other person staying in his home was using it. I saw nothing in his defense that reasonably indicated why he felt that possibility was beneath consideration.
I think he murdered his girlfriend because he was enraged with her.
I don't think it's inconceivable that in the state of just waking up, and fearing an intruder, he might have believed his girlfriend to have been in the bed next to him. Those are not conditions that promote the most sensible reactions.
I don't know what his level of confidence is when not on his prosthetics, or whether he is generally rational at all, but it seems fairly clear that he has some emotional issues. Whether those stem in part from his having lived a life different from most people, I can't say.
That Pistorius moved towards the 'threat' seems normal to me. I don't think I would just try to hide, as Nel suggested a reasonable man would do. When i hear a noise in my house, i don't sit in my bedroom and wait, I go to see what it might be, and I don't think that's unusual at all. I don't think it would be any different of i had a gun.
If Steenkamp didn't respond to his shouting, there would obviously be no further clue that it was her in there. Pistorius
could have thought it was an intruder, and
might have thought it was an intruder who was armed. This is why I am unclear as to how he could have been adjudged to
know that his (and Steenkamp's) life was not under threat.
In general, I had the overall impression that Pistorius was angry and arrogant. He seemed to have a fantasy of using his weapon, liked the idea of an armed combat situation, and that he might have wanted to use his gun in a situation like that. This strengthens the notion for me that he thought he was shooting at someone who
wasn't Steenkamp. Did he intend to kill that person? very likely. Did he know that there was no threat to him? I can't see that.
The above being said, it's no secret that the media can make people appear different than they are. I am not sure that my impression of his personality is accurate, and I think people are much more likely to lean towards 'feeling' he was guilty because he was an ******* and because his girlfriend was beautiful.
As a south african, it's possible that I have all manner of bias. I know what it's like to be attacked, I know the general state of having to be alert. I may not want Pistorius to appear representative. As far as i'm concerned, the courts must make their decision, and that must be that. I am scornful of people who "know" that he is either guilty or innocent, because in the simplest terms, there will never be certainty.