My thougts are transmitted for real

[MikeG]

If you knew you hallucinated regularly, how on earth could you tell what was "really happening"?

 

[Scorpion]

If you knew you hallucinated regularly, how on earth could you tell what was "really happening"?

It ain't easy. Like I have said, logically I deduced that if I was told facts I did not know by the office girl she was definitely talking about what I was thinking.

 

[Nay_Sayer]

It ain't easy. Like I have said, logically I deduced that if I was told facts I did not know by the office girl she was definitely talking about what I was thinking.

You keep using that word, I do not think it means what you think it means.

 

[Michel H]

It ain't easy. Like I have said, logically I deduced that if I was told facts I did not know by the office girl she was definitely talking about what I was thinking.

But she talked to you by using her normal voice (I mean, by using her mouth, her tongue, her lips, to say things, by using sound waves propagating through the air and going into your ears). She was not speaking telepathically directly in your head (these "voices", that I often hear, seem less "rich", and one can feel that the ears are not used).

 

[abaddon]

It ain't easy. Like I have said, logically I deduced that if I was told facts I did not know by the office girl she was definitely talking about what I was thinking.

How could you be thinking about it if, as you claim, you did not know about it in the first place?

 

[fuelair]

Forgot to ask: Who is this real you say you are transmitting for anyway????
And why did you not capitalize the r in his/her name?????

 

[Scorpion]

But she talked to you by using her normal voice (I mean, by using her mouth, her tongue, her lips, to say things, by using sound waves propagating through the air and going into your ears). She was not speaking telepathically directly in your head (these "voices", that I often hear, seem less "rich", and one can feel that the ears are not used).

I appeared to hear her talking out loud to other people in the office.

I don't want to complicate the issue but once another girl in the office seemed to say " It must be telepathy because a lot goes on in this office, and he doesn't hear any of that"
In other words I too may have been receiving telepathy as well as broadcasting my thoughts. But I experience hearing people talking out loud and I did not think I was receiving telepathy, only sending it.

 

[Donn]

It would just mean I was hallucinating all of the time instead of some of the time...But I could not ignore what was really happening, and had to try and deal with persecution by both psychology and psychic means.
As far as I am concerned it all happened just as I say it did. 90% sure.

You see? The easy, reasoned questions I asked earlier have all been swept away by a yes-but.

1. You were hallucinating in those days.
2. You were feared by your coworkers. They wanted you to leave. This does not imply a vast conspiracy, but your disease would feel so.

Like I have said, logically I deduced that if I was told facts I did not know by the office girl she was definitely talking about what I was thinking.

We went over this recently.

1. The "facts" were known by her, beforehand. It was well within the possible for her to know about the machinery and its state.
2. She used a common phrase in the English language, to whit: "He thinks...".

It is entirely your motivated desire to see this through a glass darkly.

 

[abaddon]

I appeared to hear her talking out loud to other people in the office.

I don't want to complicate the issue but once another girl in the office seemed to say " It must be telepathy because a lot goes on in this office, and he doesn't hear any of that"
In other words I too may have been receiving telepathy as well as broadcasting my thoughts. But I experience hearing people talking out loud and I did not think I was receiving telepathy, only sending it.

You might want to take pause and consider Michel H's other posts and then come back to us.

 

[trustbutverify]

It would just mean I was hallucinating all of the time instead of some of the time. I already know I hallucinate and if I knew that's all it was I would ignore everything I heard. Just like I learned to ignore the voices in my ears that made no sense when I first developed schizophrenia. But I could not ignore what was really happening, and had to try and deal with persecution by both psychology and psychic means.
As far as I am concerned it all happened just as I say it did. 90% sure.

Let's agree to 88%.

 

[Scorpion]

corta, I prefer to discuss things on the forum, but if you really only want to PM me then I will respond. I can't remember exactly what you said and the PM disappeared so please PM me again if you don't want your messages on the forum.

 

[Scorpion]

To make a point about broadcasting, I did not experience everyone reading my mind, it was mostly the aforementioned office girl, who I assume was some kind of psychic.
But there were other occasions I seemed to be broadcasting involving other people and here is one.
I had just come out of a shop and walked to my motorcycle and in my head I was ranting about my experiences. Two girls were walking past and one said . "He must be completely insane to shout like that" "The other girl said " I didn't hear anything".
I turned round and the shopkeeper had come to the door and was looking at me strangely.
I assumed he too had heard something. But I am ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN that I did not shout out loud. I had my teeth clenched.

 

[abaddon]

To make a point about broadcasting, I did not experience everyone reading my mind, it was mostly the aforementioned office girl, who I assume was some kind of psychic.
But there were other occasions I seemed to be broadcasting involving other people and here is one.
I had just come out of a shop and walked to my motorcycle and in my head I was ranting about my experiences. Two girls were walking past and one said . "He must be completely insane to shout like that" "The other girl said " I didn't hear anything".
I turned round and the shopkeeper had come to the door and was looking at me strangely.
I assumed he too had heard something. But I am ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN that I did not shout out loud. I had my teeth clenched.

You seem totally oblivious to the fact that your admitted behaviour is good reason to call the cops. Why exactly is that?

 

[MikeG]

Scorpion knows that s/he has mental health problems. I don't think we are helping by interacting with him/ her. Therefore I am leaving the thread, and hope that others will come to the same conclusion. I wish you well, Scorpion, and hope you get the treatment you need.

 

[Scorpion]

corta, to tell you how I overcame the problem, the fact is I had to give up work. I was nervously exhausted, and had to have a complete rest. At the time I refused medication, but I had to get sick notes and eventually had to see a psychiatrist in order to have support for my claim for sick benefits. The problem of broadcasting went away by itself after some months of rest. Many years later I realized I was damaging my brain with alcohol in an attempt to self medicate and calm my stress levels. So I went to a psychiatrist who put me on 15mgs of an anti psychotic drug called abilify. I have now not had a drink of alcohol for over three years and I am quite stable. I have not experienced broadcasting for a long time now.
I did have spiritual healing at a spiritualist church and I recommend it. I had a strong feeling of well being after some healing sessions and felt better for days after.

 

[Scorpion]

You seem totally oblivious to the fact that your admitted behaviour is good reason to call the cops. Why exactly is that?

Actually the police behaved like bastards, but they could not do anything directly to me because I had committed no crime and harmed no one.
Nor did the psychiatrist see a reason for sectioning me when the neighbour set them on me. You have to be a perceived danger to yourself or others to be sectioned.

 

[Scorpion]

Scorpion knows that s/he has mental health problems. I don't think we are helping by interacting with him/ her. Therefore I am leaving the thread, and hope that others will come to the same conclusion. I wish you well, Scorpion, and hope you get the treatment you need.

Can't you just leave without inciting others to do the same. Besides I thought you said you were leaving on page four.

As for getting treatment, thank God I can look after myself, or I would have been long dead. I saw a psychiatrist for a couple of years and you only get five minutes every three months. I was supposed to have a social worker, but I only saw him once. The psychiatrist discharged me into the care of my doctor and that means I see my doctor once a year for a few minutes check up to see if I am still alive.

PS, the psychiatrist said to me " you are very strong" Meaning I am strong minded.
I can handle all you people telling me I am crazy, and its like water off a duck.

 

[Nay_Sayer]

But she talked to you by using her normal voice (I mean, by using her mouth, her tongue, her lips, to say things, by using sound waves propagating through the air and going into your ears). She was not speaking telepathically directly in your head (these "voices", that I often hear, seem less "rich", and one can feel that the ears are not used).

We have come full circle.

This is the absolute epitome of irony.

 

[Elagabalus]

Actually the police behaved like bastards, but they could not do anything directly to me because I had committed no crime and harmed no one.
Nor did the psychiatrist see a reason for sectioning me when the neighbour set them on me. You have to be a perceived danger to yourself or others to be sectioned.

Why? Because you used a real gun with blanks and they had to come and check it out?

Or you just blurted out to some people sitting on a park bench to "shut the hell up"? I'm assuming it was a bench of some kind for people to sit on. Does the position of the bench just happen to line up with your window? Perhaps they were just sitting on a bench and not talking about you at all?

 

[Donn]

We have come full circle.

This is the absolute epitome of irony.

Is it irony when ouroboros is mentally ill? It's something, I don't know what.