Loki said:
ehbowen,
There are between 1.5 and 2 billion 'christians' on the planet at the moment. We have a 2,000 year history of christianity. All up, that's...well... a lot of christians in total!
"Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it." (1 Cor. 9:24)
Doesn't it ever worry you that you (and only you) seem to be the one christian to have fully discovered the "reality" in the nature of god, the devil, the universe, and the battle between good and evil?
Well, in the first place I don't claim to have "fully" discovered the nature of God, etc. There is much more about God, the universe, and so on to learn. I only claim that I have come to an understanding of these subjects which is logically consistent, which does not conflict with any known facts, and which is compatible with our best understanding of the previously revealed nature and character of God.
In the second place you must understand that I have devoted my entire adult life to seeking to know and understand God. Had I devoted that same measure of energy and dedication to physics, I might very well at this point be the one person to have ever "fully" discovered the reality of quantum gravity. Were that to have happened, should my response have been to shrink back and say, "No, there's no possible way I could be first; best to give this all up as a waste of time?" Or should I be seeking to publish my results and search for experimental confirmation of them?
I realise that you believe that god has chosen you to be a "special participant" in his plan, but doesn't it seem just slightly more likely that you've misinterpreted some signal along the way, and are reading a little more into things than might be there?
Simple answer: No.
More complete answer: Is it
possible that I have misinterpreted some signal and am reading more into things than might be there? Yes, absolutely, it is possible, and I try to keep that possibility well in mind. But at the same time, as I mentioned above, I have spent my entire adult life seeking to know God and to know the truth about spiritual things. So I am not surprised that, in recent years, I have been receiving results. I still seek, and will continue to seek, the grand prize: an open revelation of God in this world and in this age. This is something which I am convinced God is willing to do, and so this is what I seek. And, while continuing to seek, I continue to believe the words of Jesus: "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you...."
I have seen enough answered prayer that I am not easily discouraged when the initial answer seems to be not to my liking. I am convinced that seeking to know God and to know the truth about God is in accordance with his will, and so his answer to my prayer will never be, "No," but will either be, "Yes," or, "Wait for it." And so I continue to persist and wait, and, while waiting, to come to an even better understanding of the previously revealed nature and character of God. I fully expect an answer to my prayer, and I am convinced that that answer will come at exactly the right time and place and in the right way.
If finding God was easy, everyone could do it. And where would be the reward in that? But in a world which is dominated by Satan, "the god of this world," breaking through to know the true God requires supreme effort and unswerving dedication. And the reward will be commensurate.