Mary_H
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With what NancyS was saying about dissociation recently I wonder whether Guede might have persuaded himself that he didn't do anything.
I am sure Rudy does not hold himself responsible for what happened. He has exhibited a pattern of denial from the beginning, when he went out dancing, as if what he had just done was not something that had to be dealt with, but would turn out to be okay in the end, as was the case with the rest of his burglaries.
There are a lot of aspects to the event that he can use to rationalize that he did not commit murder and/or that what happened was less his fault than the fault of Meredith or the circumstances. He might think:
1.) It was not premeditated; it was an accident.
2.) It would not have happened if Meredith had not provoked him in some way, e.g., by coming home, or by refusing his advances.
3.) It would not have happened if Meredith had not struggled or fought back.
4.) He tried to stem the flow of Meredith's blood.
5.) Meredith was not dead when he left.
6.) To me, it is within the realm of possibility that Rudy threw the rock through Filomena's window after he left the house in order to alert neighbors.
Rudy had never killed before and I doubt he wants to think of himself as a killer. Any natural tendency he would have to deny responsibility and shift blame was strongly exploited by the lawyers, who urged him to imagine a scenario that included other people, and eventually to name those people as Amanda and Raffaele. Just as Amanda was convinced by the police that she was there, it is very likely Rudy was convinced by the lawyers (and himself) that he actually did not commit murder.
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