Hello Forumites
Hello, My name is Steve. I went to my first TAM this month. I had a saturday only ticket. I enjoyed the conference and am getting active in a local skeptics group. I've been an atheist for over 40 years. I wasn't closeted but would only talk about it if asked.
I was raised as a half a**ed Catholic. - Mom and us kids went to church on sundays, Dad didn't, except on Easter and Christmas, even though it was a mortal sin. I didn't go to a catholic school but did go to catechism once a week, except when I skipped it and walked to the Mall instead. As an adolescent I enjoyed the music of Bach, Handel and other baroque composers. During a period of depression I appealed for help from God. I had a "vision" of angels, clouds and cherubs etc. that was straight out of the album covers of the baroque imagery. This was as vivid as a dream but I was awake. The skeptic in me thought this was totally a delusion from my own mind. I came to believe that this imagery came from my own mind and not from some higher power. Why would the Devine copy album covers? I extrapolated that to think what if other religious beliefs are based on elements or delusions of the minds of the proponents and not from some Devine word? I was then demoted from half a**ed Catholic to recovering Catholic, I abandoned my imaginary friend at that time, who, by the way, didn't help me with my problems, and haven't looked back.
I'm interested to hear from other people who had "religious" experiences that they later believed were false. I'm reading "The Believing Mind" by Michael Shermer and he talks about 2 people who had religious experiences that were life changing for them, but the author felt were delusional. Indeed my experience was life changing but in an opposite direction. In the movie Letting Go of God, Julia Sweeney talks of an experience that kept her in the church for a longer period but didn't last. A common theme seems to be that these experiences occur in times of physical and/or emotional stress. Perhaps this subject has been beaten to death in these forums but my search skills failed to disclose any. Any links to previous threads on this would be appreciated.
I'm still waiting for someone with a "Near Death Experience" come out and say it was all a hallucination instead of writing best selling books. I personally know someone who was under cardiac arrest for 45 minutes and survived without brain damage and she had no recollection of anything during that time period. Just a blank spot.