s_pepys
Its my pleasure and i'm glad to help, i do not believe anyone with mental health issues should be ashamed of it, in fact i think it shows a great deal of courage to admit you have a problem and then seek help, especially when some issues (like my own) actually leave you very vulnerable.
I understand your caution of self diagnosis but to be honest it was reading up on Personality Disorders that got me my diagnosis, as with you, i recognised that the discription of BPD was what i had been feeling, thinking and doing. I have a long history of forming very quick intimate relationships, which i would then destroy by getting upset at the person for not texting me back within 20mins of me texting them and then threaten all sorts to get a response (thats just an example), its ridiculous of course but at the time it made perfect sense to me. The whole relationship would be formed and destroyed in a matter of weeks or maybe 6 months at the most. I have very few close friends because of this behaviour, those that have stuck by me still have to put up with an awful lot from me sometimes but then i at least know they understand and ignore my outbursts!
I went to my GP and explained what i had been doing and what i'd discovered and she referred me to a Psychiatrist. However i must add that i also have been treated for depression for 20 years or so (loads of different meds, none really worked for me) and have repeatedly selfharmed and attempted suicide as well as other behaviours. I am lucky that where i live i have access to a NHS professional mental health care crisis team 24hours a day.
I still struggle with the depression (hence this thread) but i have to say, just having the diagnosis was a great help because i finally had something to say to friends and family and a reason to look forward to treatment (there is no reason why i shouldn't have a happy and healthy life).
As far as your own situation goes, i'd suggest that you keep trying the Antidepressants, as they can take up to 8 weeks to work in some cases and different doses or brands work for different people but speak to your doctor about what you have found and how you feel it relates to you. If you have access to counselling too then give that a try, it was a huge help to me especially during the episodes of depression and relationship breakdowns.
Feel free to ask me anything or PM me if you prefer, i know how hard it can be and i know how much support can mean to you!
