For those of you who have expressed concern for my mental well-being, I can only thank you since I presume that it was done out of caring and with my best interest in mind, and also I need to seriously think about what reasons have emerged to make you feel this way.
Meanwhile I still contend that the visual and felt information I perceive from when I look at people are not in themselves any reason for concern. The perceptions of organs and tissue or of pain that I perceive when I see other people are on the same level as other impressions that form on their own in people's minds due to other things and association. Like when you look at a food and perceive as if you could taste it, or when you hear a familiar music you perceive the image of a memory, while that taste and that image are not as clear as what you perceive for real and you maintain a clear distinction between what is perceived directly from the outside world around you and those that appear merely in your own mind. Such are my medical perceptions, that they are more like impressions. The perceptions, in themselves, are no reason for concern.
I hold no automatic belief in the perceptions. I do not see these images transposed on the outside world. And unless the perceptions relay something serious such as heart pain, liver worms, or a serious case of cancer, the perceptions are never distracting or disturbing to my way of life or functioning as a person or in my work and studies. Mostly I only notice them when I choose to place attention to them.
The perceptions in themselves are not of interest to me. I realize that many people experience association to other things all the time in their life, seeing or feeling things around them produces automatic association that make us feel or see other things, and these are the kind of things that most of us keep private and have no reason to express to others.
The only reason I am conducting an investigation into my experience with the perceptions is due to the apparent correlation between my medical perceptions and with the actual health of persons. Although I do realize the unreliability that exists whenever a person decides to understand or to explore their own subjective experience, which is why I would probably not trust my own judgement alone when saying that I have experienced this correlation. This apparent accuracy has been established by other people as well, and by means in which I have no direct involvement or influence.
Based on that experience I have become curious about the apparent accuracy of my perceptions, and this curiosity comes not from my own choices or interpretations, but by what has been suggested to me by what takes takes place in the world around me and with other people.
Furthermore the way in which I deal with this inquiry into my perceptions shows to me that my approach to it also should not be reason of concern. I do not choose to blindly believe that I am perceiving accurate health information. I do not make any assumptions regarding my experience. I do not use my past experiences as evidence for anything. In all my intents this is a scientific investigation. Of course the upcoming study is not designed according to scientific test procedures nor are its objectives to be a test at this point.
I am fully prepared to accept the results of the investigation. My objective is to find out the truth behind the perceptions and their actual accuracy. I am prepared to find out that the actual accuracy is not after all as high as the accuracy has appeared to be in the past. For instance people might have been lying to me or simply mistaken about their health leading to a false impression of correlation but not due to me.
In case I am perceiving accurate health information, then I am of course open to discover that the information originates from cold reading. Perhaps I am using some skill without knowing it that translates external clues into corresponding health information. Personally I would find this conclusion to be equally as fascinating as a real case of extrasensory perception.
And do note, that extrasensory perception is somewhat on the bottom of my list of expected possibilities.
From the way in which I have conducted this investigation so far I see no reason for concern for my mental well-being. I have contacted two skeptics groups and taken in all of their advice and been fully conforming to their suggestions regarding how a test of my claimed experience should take place. And according to the suggestions of these skeptics I am now conducting a study into my experience. The purpose of the study of course is first of all to falsify a non-ability at this early stage, as well as to find out more about what are the kind of things that I claim to perceive, and what the correlation might be to how people perceive and know their own health. If the study reveals a significant extent of correlation between what I perceive and the actual health of persons then of course a paranormal test is an appropriate next step. The test would disable the possibility of cold reading to a far greater extent than what is available at the study, and would hopefully finally provide an answer as to how my perceptions come about.
I see nothing wrong with engaging in a scientific inquiry into an unusual experience. I am seeking a rational explanation to the apparent correlation that I have experienced.
The way in which this investigation is being done, should also not be of concern. I have consistently emphasized great care to ensure that none of the people who take part in my inquiry come to any harm, and even though many of you skeptics here at the JREF Forum have ridiculed my efforts of ensuring no harm, I have strongly and firmly encorporated all necessary care into the design of my investigation. It should be clear that I show great consideration for the possible legal, moral, ethical, and practical complications that may come about in a paranormal investigation that due to the mere subject of this inquiry is not only controversial and provocative to many, but due to involving health information of persons may involve possible harm if done in a careless way.
Of course it has already been a year and a half since I begun this investigation, but there are no intentional reasons for me to delay the progress of this investigation. There really have been practical difficulties and in combination with the careful approach that I adopt and my obligations with life and studies that have delayed the advance of this study.
I am not here seeking attention in fact it should be clear if viewed from an objective perspective that I have done what I can to avoid placing any attention on myself as a person and trying to ensure that focus remains on the subject of inquiry which is the medical perceptions and how to test their accuracy and source to see whether it correlates with what I have experienced.
I have noticed no delusional behavior on my part. And by the way, I did not make two incorrect perceptions on the recent study with one of the skeptics. I clearly concluded at the end of the viewing that I found no health problems, that all I felt was the adam's apple and a tired left shoulder, both to an extent that I deemed too insignificant to even mention as an ailment. A lot of the upset on this thread comes, I believe, from the deliberate intent to find something negative against me and from actual misinterpretation of what was said and done on my part.
Due to how anything I say here is treated by you skeptics I do have reason to doubt the value of some of your judgement. If you consider how I was treated after saying that I am from Sweden, that I am studying two B.S. degrees at the same time, that my family is not overly excited about my perceptions, and all other ordinary and trivial things and how you have reacted to these things, then I can not hold much value in your judgement in the more serious topics.
I have listened very carefully to most of what has been said here and I can safely conclude to myself that I find no reason for concern.
As to the other things that I may have expressed here that stir up some commotion among you. The reference to Arcturian heritage is not something I have stated as evidence or fact. To consider oneself a Star Person is a form of cultural identity, simply relating to interests and personal characteristics that are mutually not that common, such as a very caring and unselfish nature, interests in science, technology and spirituality, and relating to a concept of self and the world that is bigger than the current boundaries of our world. As for my experience of ghosts there is also no reason for concern (unless they push me off a chair).
I feel that much of the distress expressed by Forum members is due the delay in progress and their impatience with it. Clearly most of the criticism against me has been unfounded, and I feel that the recent upset about whether I am delusional is just the most recent expression of your complaining nature. There must always be something to argue about for you guys. Had I not offered to present evidence that I originate from Sweden we would probably still be arguing about that.
This investigation will yield final results, which I will adhere to. Unfortunately these results and conclusions are not available yet and can not be inferred by you guys analyzing what I have or have not said or your misinterpretations. Only once we have actual results of the study and or tests do we have definite material by which to deduce some sort of answer.
Once the results of this investigation become available, if it concludes that there is no significant correlation between my perceptions and actual health information then I will resume to what was before this investigation. Which is to occasionally perceive these impressions and as always to not worry about them or express them, but now with the knowledge that they are in fact not correlated with the outside mutual world regardless of what might seem.
The perceptions in themselves are not reason for concern in the way that I experience them. The way in which I handle my inquiry into what they are is also not reason for concern. There is no reason for concern. Just your impatience and your desire to find something to use against me and your dislike with how I have chosen to conduct this investigation.
Thank you for caring. Please let's wait for the results of the study which will clearly state what is going on, then let's see how I respond to the conclusions that can be drawn based on the results. If then there is an actual concern for my health revealed then I can take the steps necessary. But at this point I think I am doing just fine.
