That's sad, sorry to hear that... it's a bit ridiculous really. And they say christianity is a good source of morality??
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I appreciate that.
Like you say, it is sad.
At first, they wanted to know what "bad experience" I had that made me mad at god. Then they wanted to know why I had rejected god's love , etc. "You can't PROVE god doesn't exist!", "You're going to HELL", etc.
I've heard similar things over and over..... from others in my circle of friends and family that are Christians. It's nauseating.... mostly because I used to think like that, not because the threats and the jeers are directed at me.
When I explained the real
reasons why I rejected the Bible and Christianity and asked them questions about their faith... well, that's when the real trouble started. I say "trouble", but what it amounted to
was a refusal to speak to me about the subject. My brother, my dad and my mother will not speak to me about religion or much else for that matter.
I'm a "lost soul" now. I'm an object of pity to them - as if I've suddenly become a wino laying on a park bench.
My dad actually said.... and I quote: "Well, I'll still be happy in heaven even though I know you'll be in hell."
- - No kidding - He said that.
After he said that, I knew I that my questioning and my doubting was leading me down the right path and away from the silly fear mongering and threats of Christianity.
My mom kept saying things like, "But you're His child, how can you turn away from Him?".
Appealing to emotion and force. It's powerful at first because I didn't
want to be an atheist. I
wanted to keep believing the comforting stories and life after death stuff. I
wanted to believe that there was a god that loved me and that loving him back would come naturally. I'd pray and pray and most of the time, I'd feel better after. Today, I can "pray" to a toaster... talk things out with the toaster.... get "centered" again and feel just as good or better about myself, my life and even other kitchen appliances.
My brother droned on and on about "Having a Purpose!". He'd say that life is not an accident and that we're here for a reason. No details after that or anything - - just that (very forcefully) "We have a purpose!".
I told him that my purpose was to be happy and to try to make others around me happy as well..... the best that I can. Not because god told me to be good or because I'm worried about punishments after I die. I aksed him if that was much different from how he wanted to live and he said that it wasn't.
He asked me if I could see "design" in the universe. I said that I could see design in the sense that there's order in the universe. He said, "Well, there you go, That proves god!" Of course I asked him how he knew that it was
his god that was responsible and not Zeus, Allah, Odin, Jupiter or some very violent and twisted deity..... "FAITH!" was the ready reply.
"I've lost my faith", I told him. "Not because I wanted to, but because that's what had to happen when I actually thought about it." Before I lost my faith, I read the Bible cover to cover - searching for answers to my questions.... (skimmed through Numbers, of course

) and after I was done, I couldn't believe that this was "The Good Book". The Word of God - I had just assumed that the Bible was good and was special in some way. Nothing could have been further from the truth for me
personally. I felt like a good friend just put a knife in my stomach. It was kind of like Neo waking up in the Matrix - at first anyway. I had been simply ignorant of the Bible and had only gotten a taste of what my pastors had spoon fed me. There's plenty they don't want you to read and even less they want you to think about.
No more of that. I'm free to wonder,
to not know and to look at the real world without worrying if big-brother will approve. Even if there is some sort of god that created everything, the notion that it would have a "chosen" people, require blood sacrifice, be jealous of other gods and command (or personally carry out) the massacre of millions of people and animals is absurd.
And to reject this god is to reject the Biblical god. I for one have no problem rejecting this god - even if it is real. I would sooner worship my toaster. Even the bread gets out of the heat sooner or later.