I married and graduated college, got pregnant on purpose and had a baby. I was 22. It changed me forever, as these things do. Then I got pregnant when my son was just 9 months old (complicated birth control failure). A little traumatic, but I had found that I loved babies, so onward I went. When my second was 9 months old, I got pregnant again. This was a lot more traumatic. My exhusband wanted me to have an abortion. Ironic, since we'd spent all of our college years debating abortion. He was, and somehow remains, pro-life. I am pro-choice. I dragged it out and dragged it out until I finally just said I wasn't going to have an abortion. Pro-choice also means I get to choose to have the baby.
So three kids, in three years. Marriage on the rocks. Debt. All the lovely stuff. Got back onto our feet, moved "home," bought a house. Exhusband got a vascectomy. Divorced when the 3rd was 4.
Remarriage. Undecided on whether we should have a baby on our own. Serious question about whether I could conceive. I'd had several bouts of PID in the intervening years (thanks cheating exhusband!) and told by two doctors that i wouldn't be able to have more children due to fallopian scarring. I was on the pill. And then I had a birth control failure. We were thrilled. Had the baby. When he was around 17 months old, I conceived again. We were using condoms for birth control, but decided to wing it on day 30 of my cycle. Surely my period was just around the corner so I wouldn't get pregnant. Hah! This was a bit more stressful but still very happy with my 5 children. I love babies, breastfeeding, co-sleeping. Don't mind diapers or getting up in the middle of the night. I'm just a natural mother type (shocking the hell out of me and everyone who knew me prior).
I didn't mention, however, the serious health problems. Though I have "normal" blood pressure while not pregnant, while pregnant I have high blood pressure. I was on bedrest for 4 of 5 pregnancies. I was hospitalized (overnight) around 31 weeks with my last and she was born at slightly under 37 weeks and spent 8 days in the NICU. I had c-sections on number 1, 4 and 5. I had gestational diabetes with my last. Being pregnant has been very hard on my body.
And still, I'm pro-choice. Why? Well even though I'm "poor" I was married each time I got pregnant. I had (and have) supportive parents. I'm a college graduate with some grad school. I own my own home. And I like parenting. I love having babies, never had post partum depression. Sleep deprivation doesn't bother me much.
But lots and lots of people facing unwanted pregnancies do NOT have the same circumstances that I do. They don't have supportive spouses or families, they don't have their education, they don't own a home. Another baby could mean dropping out of college, having to move to new, more expensive apartment (due to occupancy laws).
So, regardless that I love babies and think they add everything to my life, how can I force another woman to make a decision simply because MY life is good, regardless of what circumstances HER life is in?
If I don't trust the government to spend my money wisely (though I'm liberal, I know many conservatives feel the same) how in the world can I trust them to make even more personal and life changing decisions about my uterus!
I am troubled by abortions past the 14th or 15th week. It's about that time that I "feel" the baby becoming real and separate from myself. However, I don't get to be king of the world and tell everyone else they need to feel and think the same way I do. And I seriously do not understand why political conservatives, who don't trust the government to tax them responsibly, or to school their children, or a myriad of other things, seem to feel fine and dandy about the government deciding if they are going to become parents.
Abortion is not ever going to be solved. It is not a black or white issue. The world has had people getting pregnant on accident since time began. That isn't going to change. We don't need to be happy and celebrate abortions, but in countries that take a more realistic view of sex, procreation and birth control, the abortion rate is a lot smaller than here in the moral majority America.
5 kids - 15, 13, 12, 3 and 10 months. Though all my babies weren't planned, they WERE all wanted.
Longest post I've been able to type for months. She'll probably wake up now after her refreshing evening "nap" and be up for hours.