Sounds to me like you have become hostile towards God. Why? He cares about the condition of our hearts more than anything. If you can't see that I don't know what to say to you.
I spent way too many years myself blaming God for everything that went wrong in my life. What I know now is it was my sin and rebellion that caused my greif. I finally broke and new I needed to believe and trust in Him. I pray wolfgirl that God will turn you around like He did me!
More prattle, eh, Kathy?
See, this is the problem. You continue to preach. You haven't really read a damned thing that Wolfgirl has said, and you continue to repeat the same words over and over and over again.
If I just keep saying the same things, they'll come to believe!
Sorry, Kathy. That's not how it works. Joseph Goebbels tried that, and ultimately, he failed.
This is a board which works on the basis of FACT. I can take two grapes, add two more grapes, and know that I have four grapes. That's fact. How I feel about the grapes, who created the grapes, anything at all like that is fairly subjective.
All anyone has asked of you from day one has been to show us your proof. What physical evidence can you present that proves that God did what you claim he did for you. Because, quite frankly, any and all evidence you have presented has shown that if anything, God has ignored you, and ultimately treated you in a pretty shabby manner. Looking at that, why would any of us be expected to listen to your declarations of God's greatness when he allowed you to be physically assaulted, when he placed you in a position to be killed. Add to this the idea that your "merciful" God, (yours, not mine), seems to routinely squirt raw sewage on people who really can least afford it. I'm willing to bet that someone like KellyJ would love to have her son walk through the front door of her home, saying, "Hi, Mom!"
I'm willing to bet that Fowlsound would love to have the doctors tell him, "You're cured."
I'm willing to bet someone like Hal would love to have his wife beside him, in his arms instead of in a grave.
I'm willing to bet that someone like an individual on this board I know would appreciate having those who vicimized them had either been caught in the injustice they committed, and wound up serving time for it, or had at least come to realize they evil they did, and were now making up for it as best they can.
Oh, yeah. Sure. God is right there, subjecting us to horrid abuses, declaring, "I love you! SUBMIT!" slamming us into the dirt time and time again because "It's good for us."
There are those of us, Kathy, who no longer buy the lie. Repeating it does not change the fact: God was not there for us.