I cried the whole time I made those changes. It was the first time I've cried over this job. If I didn't do what I was told to do, someone else would've. If none of us did this, our funding would be cut to such an extent that nearly everyone I know would lose their jobs--jobs that not only feed and house their families, but jobs that make a real impact on the people our organization serves.
I know that other people are facing much more significant challenges than I am, and I believe I chose the lesser evil today. Still, I don't know how to sleep tonight. I can't imagine how many of us are going through the same feelings about these forced changes across our country. I'm posting this now because I feel so incredibly alone, and maybe one small silver lining will be letting someone else know that they're not the only one feeling this way. We, as Americans, are going to get through this somehow. No matter how it feels, or how isolated we become, none of us are ever truly alone.
I'm sorry to everyone impacted by these decisions, on every level. So very, very sorry.