What you actually mean is that you prefer to guide your own life by a lack of credible evidential reasoning (otherwise known as "faith"; meaning "religious faith").
But your refusal to accept reasoned arguments supported by properly recorded, tested and reproducible evidence, is by it's own admission now known to be purely self-deception.
At one time, before the advent of what we now call "science", beginning very slowly from roughly the time of Galileo (c.1600), people did not realise that genuine measurable and reproducible confirmed evidence was required to consistently established the truth of anything. Instead they believed through religious faith (and unfortunately also through the philosophy of the time), that they could determine the truth merely by deciding in their mind whatever they thought (or wished) the correct answers to be.
What science showed, was that notion of determining right form wrong merely by philosophical or theistic musings of the mind (mostly by wishful thinking), most definitely does not work. And in fact it had never worked to actually discover or explain anything properly at all.
If religious faith was entirely harmless, then I dare-say people on forums like this, and people in all sorts of different aspects of life around the world, would not bother to criticise it or be concerned about it. But unfortunately, on the contrary, religious faith turns out to be extremely dangerous to put it mildly. At the very least it's a known and proven danger to the believers themselves. But far worse, it is of course a lethal danger to everyone else on the planet ... as evidenced in an endless history of worldwide religious wars.
But going back to your own highlighted sentence above - it is you who should reason yourself into an understanding of why religious faith does not stand up to even the slightest intellectual scrutiny. And that's simply a matter of educated intellectual honesty (quite irrespective of it's obvious and unarguable dangers for everyone).