LotusMegami
Thinker
- Joined
- Nov 9, 2004
- Messages
- 192
Last night a tornado tore through Evansville, Indiana. Homes close to my own neighborhood were totaled. The death count is up to 22.
I was alone in my house. I have always been terrified by storms. I sat in the bathtub, trying to remember the Hail Mary, speaking with a certainty that someone was listening.
It's been a long time since I've been certain of that. My prayers are usually addressed "To whom it may concern..." Am I being foolish?
It's not rational. My dad said I was blessed. But why weren't the children who died also blessed?
This has brought out the best in people. Local restaurants set up a cookout, offering free food to anyone. A local radio station donated $10,000 to the Red Cross (earmarked for tornado relief, very important!). Regular people were directing traffic around fallen live wires. My neighbors pulled together and had two huge trees off the road before dawn.
But are we doing it to please God? Are we doing it to gain points for heaven? I walked a mile to check on my best friend, and a mile back to my car, and I wasn't thinking that Jesus would be happy - I was worried about my friend.
What should a god be like? I know I'm drifting a bit, but I think I have an excuse.
A being of the greatest possbile wisdom. All can think is that my parents want me to succeed as much as they have, more than they have, if I can.
But they don't want me to become an Army linguist, because I can't have a long and prosperous life if I get shot.
And 22 people can't learn to appreciate life and be grateful for what they have, because they're dead.
I was alone in my house. I have always been terrified by storms. I sat in the bathtub, trying to remember the Hail Mary, speaking with a certainty that someone was listening.
It's been a long time since I've been certain of that. My prayers are usually addressed "To whom it may concern..." Am I being foolish?
It's not rational. My dad said I was blessed. But why weren't the children who died also blessed?
This has brought out the best in people. Local restaurants set up a cookout, offering free food to anyone. A local radio station donated $10,000 to the Red Cross (earmarked for tornado relief, very important!). Regular people were directing traffic around fallen live wires. My neighbors pulled together and had two huge trees off the road before dawn.
But are we doing it to please God? Are we doing it to gain points for heaven? I walked a mile to check on my best friend, and a mile back to my car, and I wasn't thinking that Jesus would be happy - I was worried about my friend.
What should a god be like? I know I'm drifting a bit, but I think I have an excuse.
A being of the greatest possbile wisdom. All can think is that my parents want me to succeed as much as they have, more than they have, if I can.
But they don't want me to become an Army linguist, because I can't have a long and prosperous life if I get shot.
And 22 people can't learn to appreciate life and be grateful for what they have, because they're dead.