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Why are you all pretending?

Brendy said:
I've decided to have another EEG done and to see a neurologist. My first EEG was a little abnormal and they wanted me to get it checked out further, but I never saw a neurologist about it because I never heard voices back when it was done and I was reletively fine.

My dad is a doctor and he gave me a book about someone's struggle with schizophrenia. It really has convinced me its not real.

The reason I didn't talk to my dad about my delusions is because his voice was in my head. It wasn't a nice voice. I told them everything now. I faked getting better so I'd get out of the rehab place. I felt like I was in jail.


It is so weird having conversations with the voices now that I don't believe that they are other people. I questioned whether they were other people at first, but eventually I was convinced.

I still don't completely control my brain though. I'm not consciously doing these voices and hallucinations. So I don't really consider that "I" am doing it. I'm really gonna work on trying to control what the voices say.

It's not like I just believed this stuff without proof. It was proven to me several times. But I understand now that the proof was my mind playing tricks on me.

Now I feel really bad about cutting contact from lots of people in my life. My relationship with my parents really went to hell. I really resented them harrassing me in my head then pretending to care out loud.
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Many of us simply can't control our brains. Many mental illnesses are organic, and as such require medication. I've suffered my entire life with severe depression. Without medication I have suicidal ideation on a regular (several times a week) basis. I have horrible thoughts and feelings about myself.

This is not a personal failing, and thinking so simply increases my symptoms. With the proper medication, those obsessive thoughts and feelings vanish completely.

Schizophrenia can be very difficult to treat, but recognizing that the voices in your head aren't real is a huge first step. Now it's important to act on your understanding and get help. You'v taken the first step by talking to your father and agreeing to have another EEG. Now it's important to not slip back into earlier delusions, and to follow through with your appointment and recommended aftercare.

Also, I strongly suspect that your parents and others who love you will welcome you back into their lives with open arms. Good luck. :)
 
Brendy, I'm glad you kept us apprised. It sounds like you are on a good path. It is good to find and hear from others who experience what you experience, and one day you will be that kind of help for someone else who is scared and having their first experiences with hallucinations or delusions. Nobody asks for mental illness. But at least we live in a time where there are more solutions than ever, and you are smart, and you may never have another episode. John Nash (the famous mathematician with schizophrenia and the basis for the movie--A Beautiful Mind said that he never stopped hearing voices, but he learns to check and see if they are real with people he trusts.

Schizophrenia can be very difficult because it makes you distrust the people who really could help you like your parents. It sounds like your dad is perceptive. Maybe one day you'll write your own book. It's good that you've recorded your experiences.

Don't worry about people calling you a troll. As you read the writings here, you will see that we get some trolls--people who believe unbelievable things or who don't make much sense--they get mad at us when we ask questions or ask for evidence. They don't want to discuss anything, because they believe they are here to teach. So sometimes we tease them because they can be frustrating and they don't listen anyhow. It's not nice, and I'm particularly catty with "creationists" myself-- so maybe those who called you a troll are a little paranoid too. Nobody wants to be "tricked" on line. I get so peeved when I really try to explain evolution to a creationists only to realize their questions weren't sincere at all. As you read more posts here, you'll probably understand why people may have jumped to that conclusion. But it will give you good practice to develop thick skin. There are all kinds of people in the world. You will develop the skills to find out who you can trust and who you can ignore. I suspect your dad is someone you can trust.

So you're not the Brendy in the video... you can't ride a unicycle? Darn. I thought that was pretty damn cool.
 
articulett said:
Subpoena-- you forgot the O... it counts against you. I'm a nudist.
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I forgot the O? Hmmm... I never forget the the O when it's important. And it's usually very important. Give me another chance :D I'm a nudist too but unlike you the subpeana guys don't give a discount when serving me.

Brendy said:
Really? Where'd you get this information? What's your proof? Aren't you a skeptic, don't you need proof? Aren't you trying to just start something with me by sayin that? That would make you the troll.

For your information my whole day is ****ing hell. There is no high point.

You don't care about that. And I don't care about you.
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Whoah, back off my friend. I just happen to have the most recent copy of Telepathy Today and it seems a certain person was thinking a little too loudly at the motor vehicle line recently. It seems a certain fellow named Brendy has a wonderful life full of mischief. It turns out, despite his protestations, it doesn't suck to be him.
 
Everything's good now

A thanks goes out to all of you. I am on new medication now and it is working wonderfully. I no longer hear new voices, only the older ones and even they are very diminished.

That's all I wanted to say. Just thanks for be supportive.
 
Brendy said:
A thanks goes out to all of you. I am on new medication now and it is working wonderfully. I no longer hear new voices, only the older ones and even they are very diminished.

That's all I wanted to say. Just thanks for be supportive.
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Good for you Brendy! It must be very hard when you have a screw loose to have the courage face up to it and go get it "tightened up". I wonder how many people are capable of that? I'm impressed.

LLH
 
Brendy said:
A thanks goes out to all of you. I am on new medication now and it is working wonderfully. I no longer hear new voices, only the older ones and even they are very diminished.

That's all I wanted to say. Just thanks for be supportive.
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Glad it's working out for you. For a while you were sounding a lot like the "MI5 is trying to kill me!" guy that plagues the usenet.

http://www.five.org.uk

Scary stuff......
 
Brendy said:
A thanks goes out to all of you. I am on new medication now and it is working wonderfully. I no longer hear new voices, only the older ones and even they are very diminished.

That's all I wanted to say. Just thanks for be supportive.
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Hey Brendy. It's good to hear that you're doing better. Keep hanging in there, okay?
 
Brendy said:
And if you think i am crazy, is there a need to make fun?
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No, there certainly isn't. I for one would never make fun of you. It may be extremely hard to see this from where you're sitting, but I really would recommend that you see a psychiatrist. What you are talking about seems to be what is known as a perception of "thought insertion". Far from offering evidence of telepathy, this is a common symptom of psychotic illness. I know that you're likely to think I don't understand, and that I'm just misguided in encouraging you to seek medical help. I guess there's not a lot I can do about that. But, out of concern for you, it's something I feel duty-bound to recommend all the same.

I can tell you with my hand on my heart that I am not "pretending" to believe there is no such thing as telepathy. I really do believe that there is no such thing.

(Edited to add: Sorry for not realising that your original message was part of a very old thred. I'm delighted to hear that things are going well for you now.)
 
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This is great news. You are one of the few people to make a post like your OP and then come back later and say your health is improving.
 
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