Wow! Really?
If you believe i'm crazy fine, i'm not offended. But this was a serious post and I go through this stuff everyday.
And I'm not blaming you guys for anything. I've never met any of you, so don't take what i say personal.
I don't know you and I don't know if you're crazy or making this up or believe it or whatever. However, it sounds to me like you are very bothered by the perception that others somehow have control of your thoughts or your mind.
Have you talked to a psychologist or psychiatrist about this? I'm not trying to write you off and simply say "you're crazy" but obviously these are the people who make a living studying the mind and helping people with issues involving thinking or emotions.
I think it would be worth talking to someone if only to help you sort things out. It can be constructive and it's not abnormal to talk to someone. It doesn't make you a nut to speak to someone about how you feel and things which stress you out.
As for "pretending." I am not. I'll give you the benefit of the doubt if you'll do the same for me. I'm not pretending or lying: I am very convinced that telepathy is not a real phenomena based on all the avaliable research, attempted and established science.
That being said, it can be a convincing illusion. There are some people who might at times make you feel like they can read your mind because they are very good at observing your manner or non-verbal cues. There are also people who can seem to have an ability to make you feel uncomfortable, scared, upset or happy simply by using the power of suggestion. This is not anything magic, but in the correct context, one might think there is some kind of power they have. It's a combination of illusions, salesmanship and being a smooth talker.
Again, this is something a psychologist or psychiatrist might be able to help with. Sometimes dwelling on the same subject on one's own can lead to repetitive thinking and worrying and really doesn't get you anywhere.
I'd highly suggest that you should give a professional a try and see if maybe they could give some incite and help you better sort this out.