I would too. I understand very well the benefits of community. And from that perspective, I miss Church and my friends.
That is, if Christians and Christianity was truly benign. I have absolutely nothing against the members of my church. I have nothing against and even embrace the teachings of love and forgiveness they teach. Unfortunately, that's not all they teach. It's very much an insular community. Believe as we do or forever be an outsider. Parents shun their daughters and sons. Friends turn their backs on friends that choose to live their lives not how they think they should.
As much as the New Testament teaches us to love or neighbors and enemies, it also teaches us to do battle against them.
"Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn “‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law.
Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. "
I cannot pretend that many Christians aren't actively promoting Christian Nationalism. I cannot pretend they are not pushing for authority over me and mine. I cannot pretend they are pushing an anti-science and and anti-logic theology.